Dear June,
I know you are wondering whether I would say yes or not to sleeping with you. The answer is that if you ask me nicely I would say...maybe.
:)
Might say no and make you ask twice. Yeah, I know you don't believe I would say no, well I wouldn't say no to something else but I won't say what that is.
Not that it matters since you seem unwilling to spend time with me...now.
Never know what tomorrow will bring, you're proof of that. Never thought you'd be in my life or a part of it in any way and look at this.
Not quite 20 years, but hell not that far off either, Whoa.
Visibility
Somewhere In Time
Dear June,
I could tell you quite a long story about all of the changes that occurred between when I left and came back. Some of them were...horrible and hard.
But not all.
Good things happened too and that is primarily what I focus upon. Doesn't serve to look back and focus on all that happened, good or bad.
It is ok to glance back and see the connections between things so that you can determine if you are on the right path but it shouldn't be where you get lost. Lately I have spent a bit more time there because I have needed to remind myself that I have overcome many challenges and that the current ones are just a moment.
But it doesn't change their existence or that it feels like I have been beaten to my knees a few times.
I pulled off some pretty big wins and major successes not too long ago and now I am stuck in a very odd place. Somewhere between a bigger win and potentially a big fall.
I am nervous and a bit frightened because this feels tenuous and it could be very painful. Not afraid of pain, but I have had quite a bit for a while now and I need to get stuff focused and settled so that it is more manageable.
I think it is going to happen. I think I am going to pull it off. Worked my ass off to set some things up and all I need is for a few pieces. to fall into place, but I can't do more than I have done.
Can't control anything, can only manage.
Sucks to feel helpless in some areas. I am just pushing ahead and doing my best because there are no other options.
Root for me woman, because one way or another I am going to get there but it would be nice not to have to do it all the hard way.
And that is all I have to say about that.
Maybe I'll see you somewhere in time.
I could tell you quite a long story about all of the changes that occurred between when I left and came back. Some of them were...horrible and hard.
But not all.
Good things happened too and that is primarily what I focus upon. Doesn't serve to look back and focus on all that happened, good or bad.
It is ok to glance back and see the connections between things so that you can determine if you are on the right path but it shouldn't be where you get lost. Lately I have spent a bit more time there because I have needed to remind myself that I have overcome many challenges and that the current ones are just a moment.
But it doesn't change their existence or that it feels like I have been beaten to my knees a few times.
I pulled off some pretty big wins and major successes not too long ago and now I am stuck in a very odd place. Somewhere between a bigger win and potentially a big fall.
I am nervous and a bit frightened because this feels tenuous and it could be very painful. Not afraid of pain, but I have had quite a bit for a while now and I need to get stuff focused and settled so that it is more manageable.
I think it is going to happen. I think I am going to pull it off. Worked my ass off to set some things up and all I need is for a few pieces. to fall into place, but I can't do more than I have done.
Can't control anything, can only manage.
Sucks to feel helpless in some areas. I am just pushing ahead and doing my best because there are no other options.
Root for me woman, because one way or another I am going to get there but it would be nice not to have to do it all the hard way.
And that is all I have to say about that.
Maybe I'll see you somewhere in time.
