I may yet be back in time to celebrate from afar. Can't guarantee, don't have any specific details to share.
Just a feeling that I'll be back.
Guess we'll find out if that is hope or reality.
Want to hold my hand and watch a movie? Or should I just give you the kind of big hug that you can lost in.
Visibility
Bad Movie
I had to get away from the 'puter for a few and watched a bad movie called Homeland. There was a scene in which Winona Ryder was taken from behind.
It was filmed from a distance so all I could see was her bending over and long dark hair. It made me think of you.
We need to do it. I want to make love to you but I want to just have you and since that body is mine....
Left Out But Not Forgotten
Dear Juneleh,
I have been thinking about family events, both past and present and it is sort of bittersweet because it is hard not to think about what could have been.
Most of the time I am good about not getting lost in those thoughts. Most of the time I don't think about the kids we might have had together and the family moments that didn't happen but sometimes I kind of enjoy thinking about it.
Not for the purpose of being sad or trying to make myself feel that way either but because I figured out long ago that you and I had something different, special, meaningful and magnificent. I knew it in my heart and then I got to see much of played out and proven in real life.
I remember a moment last December when you told me you felt left out and I felt badly because I understood it and I knew there was a chance I might feel the same way. I have and I do, a bit. Don't misunderstand what I am saying, I am not trying to rain on the parade.
You should be proud and you should have nothing but joy from this time. I would be sad if you didn't. But I think one of the strengths of whatever this thing is between us is the roots of honesty. Our ability to speak our minds and say what we think.
Sometimes it doesn't come out precisely the way we want. Sometimes it is awkward and uncomfortable but what I noticed long ago is that we always move past it. My guess is you would agree with me that we have the chemistry to spend endless amounts of time together and not get irritated the way we might/do with others.
To reiterate what I have said many times before, I love you and can't remember any more when I didn't.
I don't worry about our future though I really do believe there is one I know sometimes life can fool us. But I go with the default setting here and listen to my heart which says to just do what is required until the opportunity to look at a change comes.
And that also means that even if I can't celebrate the moments with you in the way I might like it doesn't mean I can't celebrate them or be happy for you. I hope you know that and god willing one day soon I'll show you.
I have been thinking about family events, both past and present and it is sort of bittersweet because it is hard not to think about what could have been.
Most of the time I am good about not getting lost in those thoughts. Most of the time I don't think about the kids we might have had together and the family moments that didn't happen but sometimes I kind of enjoy thinking about it.
Not for the purpose of being sad or trying to make myself feel that way either but because I figured out long ago that you and I had something different, special, meaningful and magnificent. I knew it in my heart and then I got to see much of played out and proven in real life.
I remember a moment last December when you told me you felt left out and I felt badly because I understood it and I knew there was a chance I might feel the same way. I have and I do, a bit. Don't misunderstand what I am saying, I am not trying to rain on the parade.
You should be proud and you should have nothing but joy from this time. I would be sad if you didn't. But I think one of the strengths of whatever this thing is between us is the roots of honesty. Our ability to speak our minds and say what we think.
Sometimes it doesn't come out precisely the way we want. Sometimes it is awkward and uncomfortable but what I noticed long ago is that we always move past it. My guess is you would agree with me that we have the chemistry to spend endless amounts of time together and not get irritated the way we might/do with others.
To reiterate what I have said many times before, I love you and can't remember any more when I didn't.
I don't worry about our future though I really do believe there is one I know sometimes life can fool us. But I go with the default setting here and listen to my heart which says to just do what is required until the opportunity to look at a change comes.
And that also means that even if I can't celebrate the moments with you in the way I might like it doesn't mean I can't celebrate them or be happy for you. I hope you know that and god willing one day soon I'll show you.
About That 10k
BTW my dearest Juneleh,
When we travel I expect to make sure we break in the beds, rooms, states and countries we see. If you know what I am saying.
If you were close I'd have you this evening. No saying no, no old lady excuses, you definitely are never too tired. I know better.
When we travel I expect to make sure we break in the beds, rooms, states and countries we see. If you know what I am saying.
If you were close I'd have you this evening. No saying no, no old lady excuses, you definitely are never too tired. I know better.
Traveling With You
Hi baby,
I keep thinking about your trip. I am so excited for you and if I could I would go with you in a heartbeat. It would be so much fun.
One of these days we'll go. It will be one of many places we visit and one of many experiences we'll share. I feel it in my bones.
Speaking of feelings, I would like to feel your lips pressed against mine.
I keep thinking about your trip. I am so excited for you and if I could I would go with you in a heartbeat. It would be so much fun.
One of these days we'll go. It will be one of many places we visit and one of many experiences we'll share. I feel it in my bones.
Speaking of feelings, I would like to feel your lips pressed against mine.
Starting Over
Sometimes I think about starting over because it feels like I have so little to show for all I have done.
I look around and wonder what it would be like to have that chance but I always say no because there are more good things on my ledger than bad.
But there are moments where I have a hard time remembering that and I have to focus on the list of accomplishments.
I never saw myself as a complete fuck up, always found a way to make things work. But I'm tired now like I have never been and I just ache.
One day this will be history and I'll have years of stability to look back upon. I know what I need and want.
Working on making things happen just wish I wasn't forced to do everything the hard way.
Makes me angry but sometimes anger is my friend.
I need a massage.
I Wanted To Unload
Look, a second post written this weekend.
My hands are shaking now because adrenaline is surging through them. This blogger posted something on Facebook about how the fighting won't stop until Israel and the Pals both love their children.
Dude went on to claim that the body count made it clear who was right and who wasn't. Well I have never liked this fucker so I took him to task immediately.
He came back at me and said he holds a degree in Poli Sci and one international relations and has written more papers about the ME than he cares to remember not to mention his mother is Jewish.
Baby, I tore into him and I would have completely destroyed him but the guy who started the topic deleted the thread. I really wanted to nail this motherfucker. I suppose it is fair to say that because I don't like him and I am already irritated I might have really aimed for his throat but fuck!
This namby pamby bullshit that is being peddled out there about body counts is going to get more people killed and I won't have it. I can't speak as honestly as I want on my page now because of my situation but I can only give so much.
Fucking assholes. Wish I could slap that pasty faced fuck and his worthless degrees. Do people really fall for that crap. A degree won't change the facts, won't fix a flawed theorem or make 2+2 equal 7.
Damn, I hate being cut off like that.
My hands are shaking now because adrenaline is surging through them. This blogger posted something on Facebook about how the fighting won't stop until Israel and the Pals both love their children.
Dude went on to claim that the body count made it clear who was right and who wasn't. Well I have never liked this fucker so I took him to task immediately.
He came back at me and said he holds a degree in Poli Sci and one international relations and has written more papers about the ME than he cares to remember not to mention his mother is Jewish.
Baby, I tore into him and I would have completely destroyed him but the guy who started the topic deleted the thread. I really wanted to nail this motherfucker. I suppose it is fair to say that because I don't like him and I am already irritated I might have really aimed for his throat but fuck!
This namby pamby bullshit that is being peddled out there about body counts is going to get more people killed and I won't have it. I can't speak as honestly as I want on my page now because of my situation but I can only give so much.
Fucking assholes. Wish I could slap that pasty faced fuck and his worthless degrees. Do people really fall for that crap. A degree won't change the facts, won't fix a flawed theorem or make 2+2 equal 7.
Damn, I hate being cut off like that.
Love Letters
I think someone likes to receive love letters even if she won't say so. I think someone enjoys it even if she pretends that friendship is all there is.
That is what I think.
That is what I think.
Too Much Time on My Hands
Trying to stay busy but I truly have too much time on my hands because even when I am busy I still have this niggling voice asking me when I am going to find something new.
Come sleep with me. I need to take a real nap.
More to come later.
Come sleep with me. I need to take a real nap.
More to come later.
Stress Relief
Well lover of mine, girl with the ruby red lips who need to be kissed by me, I am here to tell you something.
Should we ever find ourselves living together I want you to know I still expect to be intimate with you daily. To be crude, I expect you to put out and to give me both your mind and body.
It is a complete waste of the magic you offer not to be able to have you. And I am completely confident that both of us will feel better and be happier if we make love to each other frequently.
Should we ever find ourselves living together I want you to know I still expect to be intimate with you daily. To be crude, I expect you to put out and to give me both your mind and body.
It is a complete waste of the magic you offer not to be able to have you. And I am completely confident that both of us will feel better and be happier if we make love to each other frequently.
Friendly Sex
Friendly sex is coming, might not be today or tomorrow but it is coming and so are you. :)
Silly Girl
Can you stop trying to pick fights with me about silly things. I understand you are doing it because you are angry that I didn't say I wanted to make love to you 100,000 times. I apologize for that.
You know I would do it a million times or more if possible.
So I'll apologize again and promise to let you go down on me two or three times a day, if not more.
But don't worry, I will take care of you too.
When we are living together I am going to do my best to wear you out.
If we were in the same room now and you tried to fight with me I'd back you up against the wall and kiss you so hard it would take your breath away.
Hell at the moment I think I'd make you be on top. Or maybe I'd bend you over the couch and take you from behind.
But if you said please I'd be on top.
My sweet Juneleh, I do love you so and I really do know things. But I am not going to say what they are here.
You know I would do it a million times or more if possible.
So I'll apologize again and promise to let you go down on me two or three times a day, if not more.
But don't worry, I will take care of you too.
When we are living together I am going to do my best to wear you out.
If we were in the same room now and you tried to fight with me I'd back you up against the wall and kiss you so hard it would take your breath away.
Hell at the moment I think I'd make you be on top. Or maybe I'd bend you over the couch and take you from behind.
But if you said please I'd be on top.
My sweet Juneleh, I do love you so and I really do know things. But I am not going to say what they are here.
Make Up Sex
It feels like we need to have some make up sex. I want to make love to you and I want to throw you around the room a bit. Going to wrap my fingers in your hair and kiss you hard.
I need to have my way with you.
You infuriate me sometimes, but I do love you even when you make me scream.
Now let me make you scream. Come into my arms and let me take you away. I want to kiss you.
I need to have my way with you.
You infuriate me sometimes, but I do love you even when you make me scream.
Now let me make you scream. Come into my arms and let me take you away. I want to kiss you.
Fire
Baby, I am on fire for you now.
I won't tell you in detail what I want to do with and to you but man...
I would grab your hips now and take you somewhere private and have my way.
I won't tell you in detail what I want to do with and to you but man...
I would grab your hips now and take you somewhere private and have my way.
10,000 Times
Hi there June,
As I went to sleep last night I thought about how I said I wanted to make love to you 10,000 times and started thinking about the math side of things.
I got to thinking about how long it would take for that to happen. There are 365 days a year and though I want to say we are the hottest couple and biggest studs around I don't think we could do it 27 some odd times a day, every day for a year.
So I thought about a bit and wondered about a 25 year time frame. That gives us 9,125 days to work with which would certainly make it easier to reach that magical number of 10,000.
Granted there are challenges that are currently in place that would make it challenging to hit that mark in 25 years so I doubled the time frame to 50 years.
That provides us with 18,250 days to work with. Subtract the 8,250 days difference (or 22 years) and you can see it that using that time frame it is clearly possible to reach our goal.
This of course is providing that health and other challenges don't present or prevent but I think working together we can overcome those.
Fact is I wonder if you'll be as feisty as your grandma or if my sweet care can take that edge off. ;)
Some people might suggest I am crazy for sharing this with you or that I turned something romantic into something less romantic but I don't see it that way.
A) I don't care what others say.
B) You like math and I think you will appreciate that side and if not, well there has to be something said for hearing a man likes the idea of having 50 or more years of life with you.
And with that I'll end this, it is lunch time. Maybe I'll post again later, you know sometimes I update twice a day.
As I went to sleep last night I thought about how I said I wanted to make love to you 10,000 times and started thinking about the math side of things.
I got to thinking about how long it would take for that to happen. There are 365 days a year and though I want to say we are the hottest couple and biggest studs around I don't think we could do it 27 some odd times a day, every day for a year.
So I thought about a bit and wondered about a 25 year time frame. That gives us 9,125 days to work with which would certainly make it easier to reach that magical number of 10,000.
Granted there are challenges that are currently in place that would make it challenging to hit that mark in 25 years so I doubled the time frame to 50 years.
That provides us with 18,250 days to work with. Subtract the 8,250 days difference (or 22 years) and you can see it that using that time frame it is clearly possible to reach our goal.
This of course is providing that health and other challenges don't present or prevent but I think working together we can overcome those.
Fact is I wonder if you'll be as feisty as your grandma or if my sweet care can take that edge off. ;)
Some people might suggest I am crazy for sharing this with you or that I turned something romantic into something less romantic but I don't see it that way.
A) I don't care what others say.
B) You like math and I think you will appreciate that side and if not, well there has to be something said for hearing a man likes the idea of having 50 or more years of life with you.
And with that I'll end this, it is lunch time. Maybe I'll post again later, you know sometimes I update twice a day.
Wasn't Going To Post
Wasn't going to post tonight but figured I'd share a few things today.
Damn search is wearing me out. So many companies make it harder than it should be. Such a stupid and backwards process.
If I had my druthers I'd make love to you about ten thousand times and you'd fall asleep in my arms.
Perhaps one day.
You are who I like sharing stories with best.
I Am Proud Of You
Sweet Juneleh,
Monday was a very long day for multiple reasons but I hope talking made you feel better and that you know I am always proud of you.
Don't know if that means anything to you or not, but it is true. And if I could I would take you out to one of our favorite places tonight and enjoy your company but alas...
Perhaps another time. I still love you the most and most assuredly can wear you out. ;)
Monday was a very long day for multiple reasons but I hope talking made you feel better and that you know I am always proud of you.
Don't know if that means anything to you or not, but it is true. And if I could I would take you out to one of our favorite places tonight and enjoy your company but alas...
Perhaps another time. I still love you the most and most assuredly can wear you out. ;)
