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Nashville
Watched the show while on the treadmill, saw things, heard things. Some resonated. Maybe I'll tell you some day, maybe not.
The Wild Blue Yonder
“All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.”
The Fellowship of The Ring- J.R.R. Tolkien
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.”
The Fellowship of The Ring- J.R.R. Tolkien
Weekend In New England Happens Somewhere Down The Road
Dear June,
I knew you were going to come by last night. That is not me being snarky, sarcastic, arrogant or mean. It is just what I knew.
All day long I felt you close by and I just knew. It might sound silly, but I tried to wrap you in my arms and hold you tight. I wanted you to feel me and know that I am still looking out for you because I have never stopped.
Five years since the first time and a hair short of ten years since it all began. Sometimes it feels like a dream and sometimes it feels like you have always been a piece and a part of me.
I stare in the mirror and look at the face of the boy I once was and wonder if the little girl you were would have played with him.
I think about our conversations and wonder what college would have been like. I think about a million different things and remember the woman who would do anything to spend time with me and I smile. I think about my girl and remember conversations. I always enjoyed those.
Always enjoyed picking things apart and using our minds together.
One of the guys was supposed to hit Coventry this weekend. Almost asked him to go grab a photo of your old home.
This part right now is hard. There is a desire on my part to open up and share, but you don't give me anything in return and it makes me wonder if my gut is lying to me about you. I think you want to. I think you really do want to lean back in my arms and let me carry you again, but there is that little voice that whispers and says "you are being a fool." It tells me the best way to reel you back in is to be harder and meaner.
And I wonder...
These two songs came to mind.
"Some need gold and some need diamond rings
Or a drug to take away the pain that living brings
A promise of a better world to come
When whatever here is done
I don't need that sky of blue
All I know since I found you, I'm happy when I'm in your arms
Happy, darling, come the dark
Happy when I taste your kiss
I'm happy in a love like this
Theres a house upon a distant hill
Where you can hear the laughter of children ring
Guardian angels, they watch from above
Watching over the love that they bring
But at night I feel the darkness near, I awake and I find you near
I'm happy with you in my arms
I'm happy with you in my heart
Happy when I taste your kiss
I'm happy in love like this
In a world of doubt and fear
I wake at night and reach to find you near
Lost in a dream, you caught me as I fell
I want more than just a dream to tell
Were born in this world, darling, with few days and trouble never far behind
Man and woman circle each other in a cage
A cage that's been handed down the line
Lost and running beneath a million dead stars
Tonight lets shed our skins and slip these bars
Happy in each others arms
Happy baby, come the dark
Happy in each others kiss
I'm happy in a love like this"
Happy- Bruce Springsteen
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"A restless eye across a weary room
A glazed look and I was on the road to ruin
The music played and played as we whirled without end
No hint, no word her honour to defend
I will, I will she sighed to my request
And then she tossed her mane while my resolve was put to the test
Then drowned in desire, our souls on fire
I lead the way to the funeral pyre
And without a thought of the consequence
I gave in to my decadence
One slip, and down the hole we fall
It seems to take no time at all
A momentary lapse of reason
That binds a life for life
A small regret, you won't forget,
There'll be no sleep in here tonight
Was it love, or was it the idea of being in love?
Or was it the hand of fate, that seemed to fit just like a glove?
The moment slipped by and soon the seeds were sown
The year grew late and neither one wanted to remain alone
One slip, and down the hole we fall
It seems to take no time at all
A momentary lapse of reason
That binds a life for life
A small regret, you won't forget,
There'll be no sleep in here tonight
One slip ... one slip"
One Slip- Pink Floyd
One Year Later
Dear Juneleh,
I know it is a year now since your dad died and I wanted to let you know I was thinking of you. Almost picked up the phone to see how you are doing.
Anyhoo, I just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts.
I know it is a year now since your dad died and I wanted to let you know I was thinking of you. Almost picked up the phone to see how you are doing.
Anyhoo, I just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts.
Who Said I Love You First?
Actually it is not really a question- you said it first. And that is not all...One day I think you need to be pinned down, tickled and spanked.
You have been a very bad girl. ;)
You have been a very bad girl. ;)
Memory
Dear June,
Do you remember what I taste like? Do you remember what I smell like? Do you remember what it felt like to be madly in love and to be loved?
Do you remember what it felt like to want to know every part of my body and hear all of my stories. Do you remember when you wanted to go back in time and be my first and have me be yours.
I remember what all of those things and what it was like to have you wrapped around me.
Woman, I want to hook up with you. I want to make love and I want to just dominate you. Think about that crazy feeling and give in.
Give in and give yourself to me. I can make you feel good like no one else can. Take down that fucking wall and let me in.
So much time has been lost and yet so much remains. Let's take it one step at a time. I want to feed you again.
Do you remember what I taste like? Do you remember what I smell like? Do you remember what it felt like to be madly in love and to be loved?
Do you remember what it felt like to want to know every part of my body and hear all of my stories. Do you remember when you wanted to go back in time and be my first and have me be yours.
I remember what all of those things and what it was like to have you wrapped around me.
Woman, I want to hook up with you. I want to make love and I want to just dominate you. Think about that crazy feeling and give in.
Give in and give yourself to me. I can make you feel good like no one else can. Take down that fucking wall and let me in.
So much time has been lost and yet so much remains. Let's take it one step at a time. I want to feed you again.
I Want You Back
June,
I want you back. I want to figure out what is going on. I want to figure out what the hell you are doing and why. You keep coming back to visit here and I keep looking you up too.
It is time to stop fucking around and start fucking.
It is time to figure out what the story is. You are going to sleep with me again. You may not want to admit it to yourself but it is just a matter of time because you are curious as am I.
You want to know what is going on. It is part of why I am working on some stuff.
I'll give you a ride like you haven't had from anyone else in quite some time.
That is not arrogance, it is fact. I know how to touch you in all the right places. I hear you and know more than I share.
It is going to happen. There will be a reunion and union of hearts, minds and body parts. We'll work the details out and see what is what.
C'mon girly, time to step out and take a chance. Submit and be dominated, loved and adored.
I want you back. I want to figure out what is going on. I want to figure out what the hell you are doing and why. You keep coming back to visit here and I keep looking you up too.
It is time to stop fucking around and start fucking.
It is time to figure out what the story is. You are going to sleep with me again. You may not want to admit it to yourself but it is just a matter of time because you are curious as am I.
You want to know what is going on. It is part of why I am working on some stuff.
I'll give you a ride like you haven't had from anyone else in quite some time.
That is not arrogance, it is fact. I know how to touch you in all the right places. I hear you and know more than I share.
It is going to happen. There will be a reunion and union of hearts, minds and body parts. We'll work the details out and see what is what.
C'mon girly, time to step out and take a chance. Submit and be dominated, loved and adored.
