Dearest Juneleh,
You have been pretty damn steady at reaching out during some pretty tough moments for me and I am grateful. Sometimes it is funny to me how we don't discuss some of the things I share in here.
I have thoughts and ideas about why that is or isn't, but most of the time I don't spend time wondering or analyzing because regardless of what circumstances say we are or are not in many ways we are like the old married couple.
But in a good way, maybe the best way.
I think there is a very deep level of trust that you don't get with just anyone. It is why I believe I can still make you cum harder than anyone else..
It is why I believe many things.
Maybe those things are true or maybe they are false. I don't know, can't know without testing them out.
I have my ideas about what is coming and who. :)
But mostly I am grateful, you are a pain-in-my-ass, but most of the time I think you have been worth it.
Most of the time. :)
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Not Exactly A Confession
Dear June,
If I told you I want to have my way with you it wouldn't really be a confession any more than saying I want to kiss you is.
I can give you a list of reasons why and say that I think you are interested too but I think I'll skip over all that.
Won't tell you I want to see you on all fours or on your back.
Just say I want real time with you again for no reason other than because in this crazy mixed up world that makes sense to me.
If I told you I want to have my way with you it wouldn't really be a confession any more than saying I want to kiss you is.
I can give you a list of reasons why and say that I think you are interested too but I think I'll skip over all that.
Won't tell you I want to see you on all fours or on your back.
Just say I want real time with you again for no reason other than because in this crazy mixed up world that makes sense to me.
Inside You Again
Been thinking about what part of you I want to be inside of again--I suppose the smart move is to get all the way inside your head and heart again cuz then I get access to everything. ;)
Going to hug you woman.
Going to hug you woman.
Your Perfume
Got to tell you June, there is some kind of chemical thing that happens when you combine your perfume with your natural smell.
That probably sounds awkward, but it is really a compliment.
Every time that scent gets stuck in my nose I think I about burying my face in your neck. Smells wonderful.
That probably sounds awkward, but it is really a compliment.
Every time that scent gets stuck in my nose I think I about burying my face in your neck. Smells wonderful.
Third Post
I went through some old emails today, not sure why really and I came across the note below. Twelve years or so I think.
I Never Stop Thinking About You Each day I
wake up and go to bed with the same dull ache in my
side. A piece of my heart is missing. There is an
empty place that feels cold. It is bitter this pain.
So I close my eyes and I let my mind go and it finds
you there.
>
> Across the endless time and space I find you, my
love eternal. My other half who helps to complete me.
>
> You understand the things that no one else does. You
are the star in the night sky that leads me home.
There is no one like you. No one who sees me as you
do, no one who infuriates me as you do. The anger and
frustration, the joy and the pain. Happy and sad, you
take but you give more.
>
> My love for you is.
>
> It just is. I no longer remember when you were not a
part of me, not in a real sense. And if we should ever
be separated, truly separated my soul would always
remember. Be it ten minutes or ten years I know that
it would take but a moment for it all to come back.
>
> I will always be here holding your hand.
Second Post
Whoa Junehleh,
Second post in a short time, not sure if you saw the one before this about celebrations or not.
Got to tell you, I am not a fan of this Europe idea you are bantering around. Got a couple of reasons, not the least of which I am not convinced it is a good place for MOTs right now.
Got another as well, but..
Second post in a short time, not sure if you saw the one before this about celebrations or not.
Got to tell you, I am not a fan of this Europe idea you are bantering around. Got a couple of reasons, not the least of which I am not convinced it is a good place for MOTs right now.
Got another as well, but..
Celebrations
Dear Sweet Juneleh,
I am thinking I ought to take you out for your birthday. If you can find a little time to get out, well we can go toast your big day somewhere.
Lunch, dinner, whatever works best.
I am thinking I ought to take you out for your birthday. If you can find a little time to get out, well we can go toast your big day somewhere.
Lunch, dinner, whatever works best.
Tired
Hello Juneleh,
Too bad you aren't here to help me unwind and better manage the craziness that currently exists here.
Too bad you can't see the pictures and memories as I think you'd find it interesting. I think you'd like seeing the old photos of me.
Who knows, maybe one day you will.
Haven't got enough time to write as I really want to but figured you'd be back here to see what the latest is.
Maybe you'll sit on my lap and let me bounce you for a few while we share stories or maybe you'll lie down and let me give you a ride while we talk about life.
Who knows. :)
Too bad you aren't here to help me unwind and better manage the craziness that currently exists here.
Too bad you can't see the pictures and memories as I think you'd find it interesting. I think you'd like seeing the old photos of me.
Who knows, maybe one day you will.
Haven't got enough time to write as I really want to but figured you'd be back here to see what the latest is.
Maybe you'll sit on my lap and let me bounce you for a few while we share stories or maybe you'll lie down and let me give you a ride while we talk about life.
Who knows. :)
Maybe I Am Crazy
Dear Sweet June,
Maybe I am crazy but I swear I felt you thinking about us, you, me.
Swear I could feel you lying next to me, reminded me when you told me I wasn't close enough when we were spooning.
Thought about asking you if you wanted to see a movie with me this weekend or whenever. Doesn't have to be that, could be lunch/dinner whatever.
We'll see if I am correct in expecting you to show up again tonight or if I am sadly mistaken. ;)
Dinner last night was really good, but I need to bear down at the gym.
Got lots to say...maybe.
Maybe I am crazy but I swear I felt you thinking about us, you, me.
Swear I could feel you lying next to me, reminded me when you told me I wasn't close enough when we were spooning.
Thought about asking you if you wanted to see a movie with me this weekend or whenever. Doesn't have to be that, could be lunch/dinner whatever.
We'll see if I am correct in expecting you to show up again tonight or if I am sadly mistaken. ;)
Dinner last night was really good, but I need to bear down at the gym.
Got lots to say...maybe.
Coming
Coming soon or is it cumming soon for both of us. We're both aware of what is going on. Kind of funny to do it this way, kind of interesting.
More fun together than using a hand, hairbrush or other implement.
More fun together than using a hand, hairbrush or other implement.
Sooner Or Later
Dear Sweet Juneleh,
I can't predict the long term future but in the short term I'll say I am certain we are going to find our way back to something more than you reading my words.
Something that combines our mental/emotional connection with the physical. We're both thinking about it, both wondering.
I will have you again and you will have me. The world we built may be unconventional, but it is not dead.
It is sacred ground and magical.
I have kept my hands to myself when I have seen you, but I have had to remind myself.
You may say it is lust or just a man being horny and I'll say that plays the smallest role.
It is because it feels right. It feels normal.
Like I should put my hand on the small of your back as I open the door for you and we walk in.
We still don't know everything about each other, but we know all of the really important stuff. The silly back and forth about food, doesn't matter.
It is effortless spending time together.
We know how to take care of each other and the fact that it is so natural makes all the difference.
It is not work.
Two thrusts and I am all the way in physically, but mentally, it is already there.
I can't predict the long term future but in the short term I'll say I am certain we are going to find our way back to something more than you reading my words.
Something that combines our mental/emotional connection with the physical. We're both thinking about it, both wondering.
I will have you again and you will have me. The world we built may be unconventional, but it is not dead.
It is sacred ground and magical.
I have kept my hands to myself when I have seen you, but I have had to remind myself.
You may say it is lust or just a man being horny and I'll say that plays the smallest role.
It is because it feels right. It feels normal.
Like I should put my hand on the small of your back as I open the door for you and we walk in.
We still don't know everything about each other, but we know all of the really important stuff. The silly back and forth about food, doesn't matter.
It is effortless spending time together.
We know how to take care of each other and the fact that it is so natural makes all the difference.
It is not work.
Two thrusts and I am all the way in physically, but mentally, it is already there.
