Saturday Stream of Consciousness

Dear June,

Decided to write another post to you here in our cyberhome for no reason than just because or maybe because I can put things out there.

Because I can say I find it amusing that you haven't 'said' anything yet about what I have written. That is not me being sarcastic, I am smiling. I suspect it could do with your "I never say I love you first" rule or your thinking men should pursue women.

Could be both, either or neither. I know you so very well and yet it is easy to admit there are things I don't know about you or have to guess at. 

And yeah, I know I said some of this before. Just saying.

I am looking forward to feeling you pressed up against me and to spending time with you. Looking forward to seeing that smile I know so well. I have seen it while we talked, seen it while we kissed, seen it when you took me in your mouth and or when I was buried inside of you.

It is sexy, warm and beautiful.

Hard to believe how much craziness we have seen in the world and yet easy in some ways. Can't help but look forward to stopping the ride long enough for us to have our own quiet time here in 2021, hopefully sooner than later.

Happy New Year

Dear June,

I was kind of hoping you'd show up here cuz I like it when you come...by. Ok, I like making you cum too but that is a different story.

Was thinking a bit about all of the years we have known each other for lots of reasons. 

Got so many different thoughts floating through my head, some of them would make you blush. We may be older, but we aren't dead.

Think I might save some of those for the moment, let you wonder if your ideas are the same as mine.

All I'll say for certain is I'd give a lot to have you in my arms now and be able to kiss you.

Sweet Girl

 Dear Sweet Girl,

I can feel the wheels in your head turning as you mull over what you have read. Thought about telling you how badly I want to bend you over the couch or how desperately I want your mouth.

Thought about telling you how I want to see you on your back again and look in your eyes while I pump you but really want you to know it is not just about sex for me.

It is the connection. It is knowing what your hand feels like in mine. It is remembering that moment at the restaurant when I slid next to you at the booth and took your hand and you blushed.

We felt something then, I am sure we did.

So now that you know I know you have been reading and thinking too you're probably wondering why I haven't said anything. I have been waiting to see what you do. Waiting to see if you stay silent cuz I am the man and you expect me to pursue you or some such thing.

Or something else.

Hell, I figure you probably need time to process and given the situation of the world it is a little more complex than normal.

But we will see each other. We will have a date, I can feel it.

My lady, I will feel your hand in mine again and your body pressed up against me. It's not if, but when. I have far more to say, but some things will wait for in person.

Three Times

 Hey June,

Looks like this visit makes three times that you have come back to our 'cyber home' not that we visit it much anymore, but it is ours.

Been around for about 14 years or so, hard to believe and yet so damn easy to believe.

Woman, you realize we have known each other for decades and that we are heading towards a place where we can say we have been connected for almost half of our lives.

Long enough to say we have seen us grow older, certainly not kids anymore but not old, not yet.

Got Under Pressure on and just as I wrote this it hit that bit about giving ourselves one more chance. Wasn't intentional on my part and if it was it wasn't conscious.

This is is all stream of conscience, just me thinking out loud and sharing as we once did. Could tell you about remembering you watching me eat and the smile you had on your face.

Could tell you about seeing that same smile when you took me in your mouth and seeing it when we held hands.

That is a big deal to me, it is a sign of connection, union and compatibility.

Hell, I still think our sex was getting better (and it was already good) when I had to leave last time.

We know so damn much about each other and still have so much we don't know. My gut never changes it is feeling, you're a major pain-in-my-ass but I can't imagine never having known you.

You helped me remember what it is about and what it is like. That is invaluable.

I never told you directly to come here, at best I hinted at it and you came. That means something, I treasure the connection and the unspoken communication.

Won't tell you what I expect to happen or what I anticipate but I have my ideas and they include making your toes point. I know how to make you smile and I don't have to think about it, it just happens.

So lean back in my arms and let me carry you for a while. Tell me your dreams, tell me what scares you and walk with me in our world.

We deserve it.

You Rang

 Sweet Juneleh,

I told you the only reason to come here is because you are interested in exploring something more than plain friendship with me. I still hold to that.

Not saying you have to promise the rest of your life or anything like that, can't say that we will or won't wake up in the house we share together 20 years from now. It is too far off.

Do I want to hold and kiss you?

Yes.

Will I ask you to give me your body?

Damn straight, you're sexy as hell to me.

Is it crude to ask you to give me head or to tell you I want to be buried to the hilt in you?

Maybe, but it is true. I remember what it was like and want it all again.

Want to see where it leads and what can happen, but I can wait for it. I'll obviously live if it doesn't happen and so will you, but I think it would be a shame for both of us if we didn't try.

There is something there and we both know it.

It is far more than just wanting you to swallow me again.

It is the deep connection and eternal friendship that has that extra magic touch in it. Slip your hand into mine and take a chance.

One step at a time, life is short, let's see what it feels like and let our connection breathe as it is meant to.

That electric current gives life more life. Come on baby, let's go for a ride and live a little.

Waiting For An Opportunity

 Just waiting for a chance to spend some time with you and really talk.

Talking Turkey

Ok Juneleh,

I only have a moment to update this but I am coming to the point. My sweet girl, I think we need to spend some time together, real time.

I think still care deeply and profoundly for each other. Life is short.

We ought to look into this a bit and not just because I want to have my way with you, but because of that deep feeling between us.

You need to spend some time in my arms.

Self Serving

Don't know if you ever saw the prior post so here is a link.

Got to tell you with our collective stress I am some ideas for how to help manage those. You might call it self serving and I might say mutually beneficial.

Both can be true.

I want to know if what I sense is accurate.

If You Are Here

If you are here it is not just to read love poems or to see if I have propositioned you...again. It is not just curiosity or ego stroking.

It is considering...

It is thinking...

It is wondering...

It is evaluating...

Because whatever is between us doesn't just die or fade away. It has life beyond lust and forbidden fruit.

We both feel it and know it.

Sooner or later I think we are going to act on it and get that first hand memory of what electricity really feel like when you are with someone who just gets and fits you.

Maybe it is hard. Maybe it is complicated. Maybe it is easier than ever before.

Maybe I walk behind you and figure out where the lines are so that after I release the buttons/snaps/zipper/velcro I know exactly where my hands ought to go. ;)

Sleep With Me...

Dear June,

Dreamt about you for the first time in a long while, or at least the first that I remember parts of.

Grabbed a meal, asked you to sleep with me and you said no. We left the restaurant, stopped by some beautiful room and you surprised me and said I could have your mouth if I wanted.

I told you that you had always said it made no sense to you to do one but not the other and you surprised me again and said yes.

Last part I remember was feeling your legs wrap around me...

Had a hell of a day today, was late for a meeting for the second time in a row. Both times involved that little problem that sometimes comes up.

Was especially irritated because I woke up two hours early so that I would have plenty of time. But the internal mutiny refused to listen and rain added to the impact.

Was 10 minutes late and got a verbal warning. Was irritated because I have been early many times because I know I run late so I try to compensate.

But sometimes memory is a funny thing in professional and personal settings.

Anyway, as ELO says I would tell you everything if you picked up the telephone, or at least consider it.

More likely in person and definitely preferred, I like eye contact with you. Not to mention you always smell so damn good to me, that has to be chemical and not just perfume.

Pheromones or something.

Such a strange day and strange time.

Got a few big things in the works and am working my ass off to make them happen. Keep your fingers crossed and your legs uncrossed for me huh. ;)

Got to go run now, see you around Juneleh.

-Johnny

The Passionate Shepherd

Come live with me and be my love,
And we will all the pleasures prove,
That Valleys, groves, hills, and fields,
Woods, or steepy mountain yields.
And we will sit upon the Rocks,
Seeing the Shepherds feed their flocks,
By shallow Rivers to whose falls
Melodious birds sing Madrigals.
And I will make thee beds of Roses
And a thousand fragrant posies,
A cap of flowers, and a kirtle
Embroidered all with leaves of Myrtle; 

Dear June,

You know I have always liked that poem. Posting that excerpt for no reason other than just because, not asking or saying anything specific there.

If anything I'd ask for time with you, drink, lunch, dinner, movie whatever.

Don't know if you are doing your distance thing or a variation of a "I don't say I love you first" because you are waiting for me.

I could be the silly boy who says you swallowed me and said thank you or just play it straight but I am really more of a combination. Got my thoughts and ideas but mostly I am focused on the present with an eye towards the future.

Not because I have this great plan but because for now that seems to be the smartest way to go. Focus on now with an eye looking up so that I don't wander into traffic.

Got lots more to say, but no time to say it. See you around Juneleh.

P.S. If nothing else I have a big hug for you.