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Dear Sweet Juneleh,
Sometimes these plain templates make me a bit crazy because they don't help illustrate the story I want to share/tell. Every now and then I think about mixing things up here and changing it because I want to change that feeling.
Haven't done it for a variety of reasons, time and money investments based on rate of return and all that jive.
But also, there is something I like about the plain, the you don't know what lies underneath it all. I always sort of liked that about us. Sort of like an iceberg, the majority lies under the surface. Might not sound all that romantic, but the romance is there.
Not going to point out the how or why today, might not ever.
But it is there, same as you can find under a moonlit sky and an empty field. You just have to know where to look.
Sometimes these plain templates make me a bit crazy because they don't help illustrate the story I want to share/tell. Every now and then I think about mixing things up here and changing it because I want to change that feeling.
Haven't done it for a variety of reasons, time and money investments based on rate of return and all that jive.
But also, there is something I like about the plain, the you don't know what lies underneath it all. I always sort of liked that about us. Sort of like an iceberg, the majority lies under the surface. Might not sound all that romantic, but the romance is there.
Not going to point out the how or why today, might not ever.
But it is there, same as you can find under a moonlit sky and an empty field. You just have to know where to look.
First Kisses
First kisses.
That could refer to you kissing me first or it could be the opening line to a story.
First kisses are often filled with excitement followed by disappointment and horror.
or
First kisses are often filled with excitement followed by butterflies in your stomach because it was better than expected.
Or
First kisses are often filled with excitement followed by two hands on the back of her head while you both try to maintain eye contact and he prays her teeth remain uninvolved.
What to choose, what to choose...
That could refer to you kissing me first or it could be the opening line to a story.
First kisses are often filled with excitement followed by disappointment and horror.
or
First kisses are often filled with excitement followed by butterflies in your stomach because it was better than expected.
Or
First kisses are often filled with excitement followed by two hands on the back of her head while you both try to maintain eye contact and he prays her teeth remain uninvolved.
What to choose, what to choose...
Passwords
Got notified that someone has been trying to change a password. Don't think it was you, don't know who it was. Would be pretty weird to come here and find out it had unexpectedly changed. But life is filled with all sorts of unexpected stuff, now isn't it. Never know what will happen.
About That Kiss
As you know the other day I thought about kissing you and mulled over why I liked it so much. Think I figured it out, definitely figured out a few other things.
One Hell Of A Story
We have one hell of a story and no one knows how it ends. All we have are the parts and pieces that have come with it so far. At times it has been as simple as color by numbers followed by the most complex math problems one could ever think of.
That is part of the fun of life I suppose. You may think you have it in hand and know exactly what will happen and when, but you never really do. All you have are some tools to work with and the decisions/choices you make based upon it all.
It is the most fascinating and frustrating thing. But I suppose that is part of what makes for a really good story, you have elements that are exceptionally good, exceptionally bad and everything in between.
Someone once said that you should never have to work for the people in your life. In concept it sounds smart, but in execution I think some of it is the stupidest fucking thing I have heard. We grow and change, sometimes together, sometimes apart. If that doesn't require some sort of work at some point it means you have given up.
I suppose we all give up on some things and some people for a whole variety of reasons. Question I always ask is because it is easier, necessary or just because. And the best part of it all is how all that can change from time to time and moment to moment.
Sometimes life is a real peach and that is why it makes a good story. Looked at your legs the other day. Won't say why, or where, just that I did.
That is part of the fun of life I suppose. You may think you have it in hand and know exactly what will happen and when, but you never really do. All you have are some tools to work with and the decisions/choices you make based upon it all.
It is the most fascinating and frustrating thing. But I suppose that is part of what makes for a really good story, you have elements that are exceptionally good, exceptionally bad and everything in between.
Someone once said that you should never have to work for the people in your life. In concept it sounds smart, but in execution I think some of it is the stupidest fucking thing I have heard. We grow and change, sometimes together, sometimes apart. If that doesn't require some sort of work at some point it means you have given up.
I suppose we all give up on some things and some people for a whole variety of reasons. Question I always ask is because it is easier, necessary or just because. And the best part of it all is how all that can change from time to time and moment to moment.
Sometimes life is a real peach and that is why it makes a good story. Looked at your legs the other day. Won't say why, or where, just that I did.
I'd Find Out
Given the chance, I'd test that theory of electricity. I'd make like Teslas and conduct an experiment. And I am confident about what I'd find out woman. Yeah, if I had my had way, I'd have my way and it would make your hair frizz.
Just like that one time in the apartment.
Just like that one time in the apartment.
Crazy Email
Got some stupid spam message today about a swinging app. Most of the time I don't notice or read most of the spam that comes into my inbox but it came into the inbox that is tied to the blog so I suppose I could say technically it is our inbox.
Anyway it didn't get caught by the spam filter so it showed up under one of the regular tabs and I glanced at it. Didn't know what it was but only read the first few lines and shook my head. Can't say I have any interest in that.
And though it might sound ridiculous or out of touch to say this, I don't particularly like the idea of sharing you with some other guy so the idea of swinging isn't interesting. Not sure if it ever really was.
I may be a restless sort of fellow and may have a healthy dose of curiosity and interest in many things but in some I am perfectly happy to stay in my lane and follow a relatively straight line. At least that is how it is now and I am good with that. Don't need to shake things up beyond where they are at.
Got a feeling that is all coming down the pike anyway, a shakeup that is. Got this sense that changes are imminent, not sure of the time frame but I feel it. Something is coming and it is big, but this time around I am not trying to figure it out or control anything. Just going to go with the flow and see what happens.
Call me a bad guy, a dope, fool or whatever you want but I feel the need to tell you that if I had to say who I liked kissing best it is you. Always noticed it, always felt it. There is electricity there. Probably because when we want to we communicate better than most.
Lots and lots to do here, more than I can get done in the time that I have and I get more done than most so I have to head back out into the storm. Suppose the good thing about that is it keeps me busy and people who stay busy have less opportunity for getting into or causing trouble.
Sometimes trouble finds me and sometimes I find it, but I can handle it. Got no choice, have to deal with whatever comes as best we can. Most days I am pretty good at it. Take care of yourself.
Anyway it didn't get caught by the spam filter so it showed up under one of the regular tabs and I glanced at it. Didn't know what it was but only read the first few lines and shook my head. Can't say I have any interest in that.
And though it might sound ridiculous or out of touch to say this, I don't particularly like the idea of sharing you with some other guy so the idea of swinging isn't interesting. Not sure if it ever really was.
I may be a restless sort of fellow and may have a healthy dose of curiosity and interest in many things but in some I am perfectly happy to stay in my lane and follow a relatively straight line. At least that is how it is now and I am good with that. Don't need to shake things up beyond where they are at.
Got a feeling that is all coming down the pike anyway, a shakeup that is. Got this sense that changes are imminent, not sure of the time frame but I feel it. Something is coming and it is big, but this time around I am not trying to figure it out or control anything. Just going to go with the flow and see what happens.
Call me a bad guy, a dope, fool or whatever you want but I feel the need to tell you that if I had to say who I liked kissing best it is you. Always noticed it, always felt it. There is electricity there. Probably because when we want to we communicate better than most.
Lots and lots to do here, more than I can get done in the time that I have and I get more done than most so I have to head back out into the storm. Suppose the good thing about that is it keeps me busy and people who stay busy have less opportunity for getting into or causing trouble.
Sometimes trouble finds me and sometimes I find it, but I can handle it. Got no choice, have to deal with whatever comes as best we can. Most days I am pretty good at it. Take care of yourself.
Potential
Dear Juneleh,
Don't mistake the term of endearment for meaning you are not a pain in my ass because you are and not just because of the estrogen either. Got a list of 987 reasons why you fit that bill and even though you'll probably say you don't care I bet you'd like to see me come up with more than 15.
Wouldn't take as long as you think and I won't limit myself to only dealing with what I know from experience to be factual. I'll use logic and a very good imagination to fill in the blanks, might even start with you only think you are the boss.
But I might not.
I will tell you that I realized a long time ago that part of what is hard for me is looking at unrealized and unfilled potential and not trying to fill in the blanks. Learned long ago you can't always do it and it won't always matter if you try because you'll run into some stumbling blocks that you can't get around no matter what you do because some people won't help move them out of your way.
Might surprise you to hear that I am not real fond of waiting and that sometimes I'll try to bull my way through some of these obstacles. Took a look at the scorecard the other day and am pleased to say that I am kicking some serious ass.
Not quite where I want to be, but damn I am making progress. Progress is good, better when shared with good people, but good nonetheless.
Got to run because part of making shit happens comes from being relentless in the areas that count and I have to go prepare. Fuck woman, if you knew what I have been through or done. Maybe one day, maybe not.
Sometimes you have to have the intestinal fortitude to say you'll never know and just keep going. That I am good at, that I can do. Don't always like it much, but I know how to keep pushing forward.
Don't mistake the term of endearment for meaning you are not a pain in my ass because you are and not just because of the estrogen either. Got a list of 987 reasons why you fit that bill and even though you'll probably say you don't care I bet you'd like to see me come up with more than 15.
Wouldn't take as long as you think and I won't limit myself to only dealing with what I know from experience to be factual. I'll use logic and a very good imagination to fill in the blanks, might even start with you only think you are the boss.
But I might not.
I will tell you that I realized a long time ago that part of what is hard for me is looking at unrealized and unfilled potential and not trying to fill in the blanks. Learned long ago you can't always do it and it won't always matter if you try because you'll run into some stumbling blocks that you can't get around no matter what you do because some people won't help move them out of your way.
Might surprise you to hear that I am not real fond of waiting and that sometimes I'll try to bull my way through some of these obstacles. Took a look at the scorecard the other day and am pleased to say that I am kicking some serious ass.
Not quite where I want to be, but damn I am making progress. Progress is good, better when shared with good people, but good nonetheless.
Got to run because part of making shit happens comes from being relentless in the areas that count and I have to go prepare. Fuck woman, if you knew what I have been through or done. Maybe one day, maybe not.
Sometimes you have to have the intestinal fortitude to say you'll never know and just keep going. That I am good at, that I can do. Don't always like it much, but I know how to keep pushing forward.
This Post Is Not About
It is not about....many things and the stuff it is about, well I am not going to say. It is password protected.
This & That
Dear June,
A while back there was a visitor here that hung around for a while. Spent time digging through things here, left a couple of comments that mildly irked me. Not sure what bothered me because they were similar to mosquito bites, nothing of substance but itchy enough to get your attention.
But the lion doesn't respond to the yapping of small dogs and smart people don't give mosquito bites much if any thought. Guess the fact that I remember means I am not a lion or particularly smart. Or maybe it just means that I remember lots of things, some good, some bad and some in between.
Ultimately I return to the same sources for my decision making because they are proven. When I make my list of wins and losses the wins still outnumber the losses. The problem is that there a few losses there that are a bit larger than I like, chaps my hide a bit.
I could tell you that I saw a recent picture and that you looked pretty damn good, but I'd hate to stroke your ego if I couldn't stroke other parts so...
This post could go a lot of different directions and inside my head it already has but I think I'll save those for thoughts for now. Maybe I'll share them at a later date, maybe I won't. Don't know, kind of funny to say since I know things.
But if I know anything it is that I know nothing and that so much I had thought, expected or planned has turned out differently than I had anticipated so I'll just sit back and wait. Not particularly easy but sometimes it is how it has to be.
Archimedes was right, with the right lever you can move the world but you have to have it and sometimes you just don't.
