Dear Juneleh,
Don't mistake the term of endearment for meaning you are not a pain in my ass because you are and not just because of the estrogen either. Got a list of 987 reasons why you fit that bill and even though you'll probably say you don't care I bet you'd like to see me come up with more than 15.
Wouldn't take as long as you think and I won't limit myself to only dealing with what I know from experience to be factual. I'll use logic and a very good imagination to fill in the blanks, might even start with you only think you are the boss.
But I might not.
I will tell you that I realized a long time ago that part of what is hard for me is looking at unrealized and unfilled potential and not trying to fill in the blanks. Learned long ago you can't always do it and it won't always matter if you try because you'll run into some stumbling blocks that you can't get around no matter what you do because some people won't help move them out of your way.
Might surprise you to hear that I am not real fond of waiting and that sometimes I'll try to bull my way through some of these obstacles. Took a look at the scorecard the other day and am pleased to say that I am kicking some serious ass.
Not quite where I want to be, but damn I am making progress. Progress is good, better when shared with good people, but good nonetheless.
Got to run because part of making shit happens comes from being relentless in the areas that count and I have to go prepare. Fuck woman, if you knew what I have been through or done. Maybe one day, maybe not.
Sometimes you have to have the intestinal fortitude to say you'll never know and just keep going. That I am good at, that I can do. Don't always like it much, but I know how to keep pushing forward.
Visibility
This Post Is Not About
It is not about....many things and the stuff it is about, well I am not going to say. It is password protected.
This & That
Dear June,
A while back there was a visitor here that hung around for a while. Spent time digging through things here, left a couple of comments that mildly irked me. Not sure what bothered me because they were similar to mosquito bites, nothing of substance but itchy enough to get your attention.
But the lion doesn't respond to the yapping of small dogs and smart people don't give mosquito bites much if any thought. Guess the fact that I remember means I am not a lion or particularly smart. Or maybe it just means that I remember lots of things, some good, some bad and some in between.
Ultimately I return to the same sources for my decision making because they are proven. When I make my list of wins and losses the wins still outnumber the losses. The problem is that there a few losses there that are a bit larger than I like, chaps my hide a bit.
I could tell you that I saw a recent picture and that you looked pretty damn good, but I'd hate to stroke your ego if I couldn't stroke other parts so...
This post could go a lot of different directions and inside my head it already has but I think I'll save those for thoughts for now. Maybe I'll share them at a later date, maybe I won't. Don't know, kind of funny to say since I know things.
But if I know anything it is that I know nothing and that so much I had thought, expected or planned has turned out differently than I had anticipated so I'll just sit back and wait. Not particularly easy but sometimes it is how it has to be.
Archimedes was right, with the right lever you can move the world but you have to have it and sometimes you just don't.
Messing With the Code
Made a couple of small changes to the code, hope it doesn't mess things up. But I like learning by doing, so might as well take a chance on this blog.
Legs and Lips
Great googly moogly, what a freaking long week. Remember that bit about legs and lips making it better, well if it were possible I'd consider it. Damn, I feel like I got run over by a train. But we'll see if the work I did pays off.
I sure hope so because I laid it all on the line, busted my ass to make things happen. Now I keep my fingers cross and wait and hope they liked my presentation. Would sleep my way through the weekend, but got way too much going on.
I sure hope so because I laid it all on the line, busted my ass to make things happen. Now I keep my fingers cross and wait and hope they liked my presentation. Would sleep my way through the weekend, but got way too much going on.
Probably Not A Good Idea
Thought I smelled your perfume the other day. I was 100 percent certain you weren't in the building but I concede I took two minutes to try to figure out where the smell was coming from. Thought it was a woman by the elevator but didn't think she'd appreciate me asking if I could smell her.
Frankly I didn't want to get anywhere close to her. Ton of attitude and makeup pancaked on her face made me go bleah. But that scent is pleasant, not enough to make me approach some strange lady but pleasant nonetheless.
Funny how smells remind us of people, places and experiences.
Legs Or Lips
Some might call it crude, but today would have been vastly improved had your legs or lips been wrapped around me. Just one of those crazy, can't rest because the world won't stop spinning moves and moments.
Spent much of it working hard to figure out WTF was causing all hell to break loose and how to stop it. Think a couple of people were surprised by me because they told me I was far more intense than they would have imagined. I told them that is what happens when stupid shit happens and I have to account for said stupidity.
I am good at getting into trouble on my own, hate when other people cause chaos and suck me into it, but sometimes that is how it goes and it is definitely how it went today. Still not done, but I think I might actually finish the projects before midnight so I'll consider that a victory.
Spent much of it working hard to figure out WTF was causing all hell to break loose and how to stop it. Think a couple of people were surprised by me because they told me I was far more intense than they would have imagined. I told them that is what happens when stupid shit happens and I have to account for said stupidity.
I am good at getting into trouble on my own, hate when other people cause chaos and suck me into it, but sometimes that is how it goes and it is definitely how it went today. Still not done, but I think I might actually finish the projects before midnight so I'll consider that a victory.
More Sleep Please
Operating on about 3.5 or 4 hours, need more sleep...please.
So tired that if you were to take a nap with me I don't think I could do more than snore....ZZZZZZZZZZZ
What a busy week.
So tired that if you were to take a nap with me I don't think I could do more than snore....ZZZZZZZZZZZ
What a busy week.
Drive By Posting
Dear June,
Got to tell you that I was at a party recently and someone asked if the people had married the person they thought was the best kisser
Don't let this go to your head, but you are the person I liked kissing the most. I'll let you make a list of reasons about why liked the most is better, equal or as good as "best."
I need to buy a new car. Haven't decided what and hope to be able to hold off for a few more months because I expect it to lead to a better deal, but we shall see. The current one needs work and I don't want to put a lot of cash into it, so if I can help it limp along for a while that would be good.
But life doesn't always cooperate so I am doing some research and looking around just in case I have to pull the trigger on it sooner. This time around I need to make sure that it is more than just economical and reliable, this time I want a little comfort too.
Work too hard not to get that. Heated seats, lumbar support, nice stereo and better safety gear. Man, so very different than the last time around. And with that I am out of here, time to work.
Got to tell you that I was at a party recently and someone asked if the people had married the person they thought was the best kisser
Don't let this go to your head, but you are the person I liked kissing the most. I'll let you make a list of reasons about why liked the most is better, equal or as good as "best."
I need to buy a new car. Haven't decided what and hope to be able to hold off for a few more months because I expect it to lead to a better deal, but we shall see. The current one needs work and I don't want to put a lot of cash into it, so if I can help it limp along for a while that would be good.
But life doesn't always cooperate so I am doing some research and looking around just in case I have to pull the trigger on it sooner. This time around I need to make sure that it is more than just economical and reliable, this time I want a little comfort too.
Work too hard not to get that. Heated seats, lumbar support, nice stereo and better safety gear. Man, so very different than the last time around. And with that I am out of here, time to work.
Unfiltered and Free
Dear June,
I much prefer being completely unfiltered and just letting go. It is entertaining to me to see what kind of crazy shit I can write and how many people will respond. Sort of juvenile, but I think I am at my best when I just let go and write.
Kind of funny to me too because sometimes people read the real and serious stuff and tell me they are surprised. Can't decide if I should be offended because they thought I was some silly buffoon or if it never occurred to them that I might actually have something to say.
Well hell, I have plenty to say about lots of things but sometimes I just refuse to say it because it is not worth my time or I just don't feel like it. And if there is something I am good at it, it is not doing what or whom I don't feel like doing.
I much prefer being completely unfiltered and just letting go. It is entertaining to me to see what kind of crazy shit I can write and how many people will respond. Sort of juvenile, but I think I am at my best when I just let go and write.
Kind of funny to me too because sometimes people read the real and serious stuff and tell me they are surprised. Can't decide if I should be offended because they thought I was some silly buffoon or if it never occurred to them that I might actually have something to say.
Well hell, I have plenty to say about lots of things but sometimes I just refuse to say it because it is not worth my time or I just don't feel like it. And if there is something I am good at it, it is not doing what or whom I don't feel like doing.
The Future Is Unwritten
Well sweet Juneleh we have hit that time of year where they say the big man upstairs is writing in his book.
I say the future is unwritten and that it is filled with possibilities and potential. I have been to hell and back more than a couple of times during the last decade or so and have no problem saying that the most recent experience was in many ways the worst.
It was a hard fucking year and I got my ass kicked and handed back to me more than once.
But old Johnny is ornery, stubborn and unwilling to just concede defeat. People say and do what they want but I put my head down and do what is required. It always pays off and I think it might have again.
Here is to the future, unwritten and unknown but bigger, better and brighter for all.
Major League baseball fun too, love my team.
I say the future is unwritten and that it is filled with possibilities and potential. I have been to hell and back more than a couple of times during the last decade or so and have no problem saying that the most recent experience was in many ways the worst.
It was a hard fucking year and I got my ass kicked and handed back to me more than once.
But old Johnny is ornery, stubborn and unwilling to just concede defeat. People say and do what they want but I put my head down and do what is required. It always pays off and I think it might have again.
Here is to the future, unwritten and unknown but bigger, better and brighter for all.
Major League baseball fun too, love my team.
