A March Surprise

 Dear June,

Looks like we have a new visitor rolling through this place but I don't recognize the IP.  Pretty sure it wasn't you and pretty sure you haven't read the last couple of posts.

Pretty sure the next time I see you here I am going to reach out and ask you when we can sleep together and when we can hang out.

Beyond pretty sure that you have considered it more than once and that you haven't made a final decision.

Certain that you could give yourself to me and enjoy it but that you wonder where it will lead and if we'll end up addicted to each other again.

Not sure we ever got over that addiction, it just sort of fades a bit because we make it that way for our own comfort.

Got my suspicions about the how and why, maybe it is tied into that four letter word. Don't go for as many years as we have without something deep and I am not talking about being buried deep in the physical sense.

Though there is something to it.

Nah, it is a mental/emotional thing and maybe chemical too. We really are tied together in some ways and how that plays out, well now isn't that the million dollar question.

Anyway, didn't plan on writing anything new until you visited again, but I did. So I could stroke your ego and tell you I think you look hot and tell you all sorts of other stuff that you already know but like hearing from me.

Magic 8 ball says you'll hear it in person one day, if not before.

Life is one hell of a ride huh.

Videos and Pictures

 Dear June,

Should I confess you did this thing with your lips that reminded me of how they looked when wrapped around me or that you made another face that made me wonder how long before I get to kiss you again.

Should I tell you how I like texting with you because it feels like old times and makes me think we're that much closer to whatever is coming.

Speaking of coming...you are going to be sooner or later...by my touch.

Looking forward to making your toes point and your heart sing a little song. I like taking care of you.

Bet you read this soon.

How Long Part II

 Dear June,

I don't think you have read How Long so I am putting the link here so you can see it.

Not a big Valentine's Day guy but I'd spread some romance with you for no other reason than just because. 

You're a major pain-in-my-ass but you have been part of my life in one way or another for so long it is hard to remember a time when you weren't.

I imagine you might say the same about me, hard to say because there are moments when I am certain when I know you and times where I think maybe I don't know so much.

But ask me to pick between the two and I will always opt for saying I know you because I feel you, always have.

Always hear your voice when I read your words and the gut feeling in my belly is we have a ridiculous amount of potential.

Again, I won't say what we'll be in the future, but I will have you again. I will look down and see you looking up at me. I will bury myself inside you and we'll remember again that we have shared more mature intimacy than any other.

How do I know this?

I just do.

We can't stop finding each other and no matter what we do we go back and look for our other half. 

Baby, to me that is all the proof I need that we are going to dip our toes into this again and see what happens.

Timing and circumstances aren't perfect but they are closer to being what we would ask for than they have been in years.

We're on the long and winding road, even if we don't know for how long or where it goes. We're on it because we can't not keep walking a little bit farther and a little bit longer. Maybe even deeper.

Guess you know a bit about some of what I am thinking about, but certainly not all of it. There is all sorts of good stuff to talk about.

How Long

 Dear June,

Watched you sing twice and thought about a bunch of things. Thought about meals we shared and times spent alone. Pictured you on your knees and on your back.

But I thought about our birthday and how we sat on the couch holding hands watching a movie and just enjoying time together.

Thought about when I can look you in the eye and just talk. Thought about when I can wrap my fingers in your hair or grab your waist and take you.

Thought about whispering in your ear that I want to make love to you and thought about being crude and saying I need to put my dick in your mouth and feel you suck on my head.

Thought about bending you over the couch and manhandling you.

Thought about how when you and I are at our best we're pretty damn good.

Wondered how long it is going to be before I wrap you up in my arms and you really let go and share with me.

Wondered when I'll be more direct and whether you can stand the intensity of my glare. Thought about whether that bit about us healing each other has any truth and figured it probably does.

Been 18 years, how the fuck did that happen woman.

Certainly not the guy I used to be in some ways but I am more myself than ever. If you are interested in finding out about him you might meet him.

Either way, we're going to get some time to do our thing. One day you'll look up at me and wonder if I could be any deeper or if we could feel any closer. I am certain of it.

I Hear Your Voice

Dear Juneleh,

Even though you haven't acknowledged my words, requests or proposals here I hear your voice in the silence and see you nod your head in assent.

Been smiling about my favorite YoYo all damn day.  Don't take it the wrong way, I would be aggravated on the corporate front if that is how I was treated too.

Can't help but picture a YoYo swinging back and forth or bobbing up and down and what can I say, you were awesome at that.

I want more. I want your lips wrapped around me.

I want your arms and legs too.

Hell, I need them and I think you do too which is why you haven't told me to go away.

I look forward to having you again. Look forward to watching your eyes as I slide all the way in, you are so damn sexy.

Still believe our hearts and souls are connected for a deeper purpose. Still believe there is some sort of spiritual thing there. You don't have to agree or believe, that is ok.

Still believe we can learn from each other and give so much that we don't get elsewhere.

Still not asking for long term commitment nor trying to say you are just here for sex. That is not it at all. You mean too much to me for that.

Just laying some cards on the table that say life is short and we deserve to see what can happen. Could go somewhere, might not.

But when you think you might be able to hold hands and fly together you ought to find out and not let it go because it might hold a challenge or two.

So smile my girl, and remember when you are thinking of me I just might be thinking of you too.

Did You Find It?

 Dear Sweet June,

I wrote a post the other day that I am not sure you have read so just in case here is the link.

When I told you I would write for you I didn't mean that I would write you a letter but you took it that way and I figure what the fuck.

Already told you all sorts of stuff, why not just write, especially if it makes you feel good cuz I like taking care of you.

Could write about asking you to blow me because I know you like it and hell, so do I.

Could write about cooking you a meal because I really can do that too. Not classically trained, kind of messy in the kitchen but I make it work.

Could write about making love to you.

Could write about just lying in bed with my Lady June and talking. Could talk about our world.

Got to tell you, if we ever ended up living together, out in the open, and everyone knew about us they still wouldn't know about our world.

That place is ours forever, no matter what happens.

It would be obvious to people and they would know we had it and they weren't/aren't part of it/.

You smell good woman, my oh my, you always smell so damn good. I could tell you a story or two about that...

Might be a little tipsy now, going to end this for the moment before I say too damn much.

Will end by saying I really miss having hours of uninterrupted time with you. Life is a hell of a ride, a hell of a ride.

Never know if you'll grab the brass ring or be thrown from the horse.

Let's Play A Game

 You might think I am going to suggest let's play hide the a salami or let's see if June can deep throat Johnny. Both are fun and both will be played, but I think we're going with let's see when my sweet girl submits.

Let's see when Babeleh says, "Johnny, I miss you terribly and need to hide in your arms and listen to your heart."

Or we can play when Johnny says no to June unless she says please.

If you ask nicely I may even write you a very special letter. May write it regardless and see how long it takes you to find it.

Always a nice surprise to see you come by here, sometimes you surprise me. It a good thing, mostly.

Had one horrific day Juneleh, wanted to scream. So damn frustrating. Hoping I figured it out and solved a few things, but I don't know.

I think I may have to go through some more hell to get to the other side. So damn annoying, but I guess I'll figure it out.

Whole body hurts from being clenched.

Feh.

Want to help me smile. ;)

Got to run for now, see you around Lady June.

Expectations

 Dear Juneleh,

You won't be surprised if I tell you I expect to spend time with you and that I expect to have you. If we were magically transported into our own suite I wouldn't know what I would do first.

I'd hug and kiss you, run my hands all over you but I can't say if I'd ask for your mouth or gently put you on your back and bury myself inside of you.

Might do both, could be one or either.

I could tell you I wand to do it doggy or see you on top.

Could just hold you in my arms and enjoy the connection.

I am sure I'll make love to you and I am sure I'll fuck you but how, when and where I can't say.

When?

That is the biggest question to me. When. Not how or where.

I told you if you come here to our cyberhome it says to me you are interested in us and my only expectation there is to see where it leads. Have my ideas, but life has proven that you never can tell what can or cannot be.

So I start with the simple and the easy.

I haven't any doubt our world can be our refuge and that is invaluable.

So know when we get our moment I will be focused on you. Not that I am not now, but I look forward to being able to pay that kind of focused intimate attention.

I want to make you cum over and over. I have missed that. You're so damn sexy, gives me a chill watching your toes point and feeling your body tingle. I like taking care of you.

Might Be A Couple Of Posts

 Might be a couple of posts today, not sure yet. Was thinking about grabbing your hips and taking you. I need to ride you and I need to take you from behind.

I think you need it too. Think you need to feel my hands on you, pulling your hair, holding onto your head.

You need to be manhandled and I am the guy to do it. :)

Saturday Stream of Consciousness

Dear June,

Decided to write another post to you here in our cyberhome for no reason than just because or maybe because I can put things out there.

Because I can say I find it amusing that you haven't 'said' anything yet about what I have written. That is not me being sarcastic, I am smiling. I suspect it could do with your "I never say I love you first" rule or your thinking men should pursue women.

Could be both, either or neither. I know you so very well and yet it is easy to admit there are things I don't know about you or have to guess at. 

And yeah, I know I said some of this before. Just saying.

I am looking forward to feeling you pressed up against me and to spending time with you. Looking forward to seeing that smile I know so well. I have seen it while we talked, seen it while we kissed, seen it when you took me in your mouth and or when I was buried inside of you.

It is sexy, warm and beautiful.

Hard to believe how much craziness we have seen in the world and yet easy in some ways. Can't help but look forward to stopping the ride long enough for us to have our own quiet time here in 2021, hopefully sooner than later.

Happy New Year

Dear June,

I was kind of hoping you'd show up here cuz I like it when you come...by. Ok, I like making you cum too but that is a different story.

Was thinking a bit about all of the years we have known each other for lots of reasons. 

Got so many different thoughts floating through my head, some of them would make you blush. We may be older, but we aren't dead.

Think I might save some of those for the moment, let you wonder if your ideas are the same as mine.

All I'll say for certain is I'd give a lot to have you in my arms now and be able to kiss you.