Time Together

 Dear Juneleh,

I noticed you came by tonight so I'll probably post something to see if I can 'encourage' you to return to see this update.

Could text or messenger you but am waiting to see if you come to me. Waiting to see if you take a few steps or if you are going to wait for me to come for you. Cuz you know eventually I will.

You might wonder if it defeats the purpose by saying this here and maybe it does, but then again maybe it doesn't.

I am capable of saying anything, at any time, anywhere. Doesn't mean I will or that I won't.

Hell, I am quieter now than I have ever been. Spend so much time in my own head that I forget about talking.

But I'll talk with you. 

Told you I want time together. I want to know if what I sense is real.

Part of it without question is of this I am certain, but I want to know more. 

I remember taking your hand in the restaurant and feeling a little electric shock and smiling to myself because our bodies remembered each other just as our hearts have never forgotten.

What can I tell you woman, I ache and I sense and I wonder.

But mostly I know stuff and that is not something I'll share here, has to be in person. 

Not everything can be put on paper, some things have to be done live so that we feel alive. Don't know if that makes sense, but if I kissed you now I think it might.

I remember you lips. Do you remember mine.

Your Lips

 Been thinking about your lips pressed up against mine and wondering if memory is accurate. I intend to find out.

You need to be kissed Lady June...by me.

Will I Be Right?

 Dear Sweet June,

Will I be right about you coming back tonight to see what I have left for you or will you fool me?

Not sure, I know you are thinking about what I have written and that you are considering what to do. I am certain of it.

Certain that in some ways it would be easier for you to sleep with me if there was nothing else tied up in it but that is not something either of us believe. We have lived too much and loved too hard for it to be just sex.

Still, I am not lying when I say I don't go into this with expectations of marriage or living together. Won't say any of those are impossible because we have proven to me that it is impossible to make a 100 percent prediction of what will or won't happen.

I am not exaggerating when I say I have been to hell because I have taken some beatings that made me wonder why I have to be so goddamned tough and durable. Made me wonder why I didn't just break because that might be easier.

But I am who I am and you have seen as much as anyone and you haven't seen it all. Why wouldn't I want to make love to you again. Why wouldn't I want to take you and have my way.

There is a depth of trust that comes with us in spite of everything.

Sometimes I have a hard time accepting I don't look like I once did and can't physically do all I could but at the same time most of that is bullshit.

Looks aren't everything and I don't think I look horrible. And hell, I can still do quite a bit and with a little effort can do even more. It is just harder to maintain than it once was but so what.

So I have come clean, told you I want you in my arms. Want to have my way with you and I know that will happen.

I am exceptionally curious about it all. That connection is powerful.

Maybe I have written too much, given you too much stimulation, too much intensity but I don't think so. You aren't scared of me, nor should you be.

Mostly I am wondering if you are going to come to me or make me come get you...figuratively of course.

You could tell me to go away but I don't believe you want to. I am certain you want to know more just as I do.

I can do things one step at a time. I am good at that.

Take my hand woman, step into my arms and get lost for a bit. I can carry you if you let me. :)

I Feel It Coming

 Dear Sweet Juneleh,

I feel it coming. I sense something growing and building and it is not me exploding in your mouth. 

Could I have avoided that? Yeah, but I think you know by now how I think of you and it is not solely physical.

It is everything else that comes with it that gets me. There are so many things I want to share with you and talk about. You have occupied a place no one else has and that is meaningful to me.

We're both vaccinated now and it is just a matter of time before we get our moment. Just a matter of time before we see if you can withstand the intensity of my gaze. ;)

Just a matter of time before I pull you in close and whisper things in your ear. I know how to reach your heart and soul.

I know how to make you feel like a woman and remind you what electricity feels like and how to take you away from the 10,093,938 thoughts that are constantly moving through your mind.

It is going to happen Sweet June, you will find yourself looking up at me again. I will have you. I will take you and we will have our moment in our castle again.

The drawbridge will open for us any time we choose to approach it.

This I know and so many other things. :)

Second Post

 Dear Juneleh,

As promised earlier this is the second post of the day, wrote one earlier.

I keep getting interrupted so this one will be shorter for now, though I may come back and add to it. I really need my own office so that I don't have to contend with constant interruptions.

Anyway, I am curious to see if you come back tonight as I suspect you might. I'd like to take you away for a few days and have you to myself.

Not just because I intend to have my way with you because that is going to happen but because I'd like to get a chunk of time to just be with you. There is much to catch up on and talk about and if I had my druthers there would be plenty of time to just be.

But as I mentioned before I am not setting huge expectations. I am here to see what happens.

And if you think that means I want to make love to you, fuck you, ride you and cum in your mouth multiple times you're right.

And let's not forget, I like making you cum and remember getting multiples out of you and want to do that again. It is damn sexy and I like taking care of you.

So there are a few things, but it is all one step at a time now. Got a few ideas, oh yes I do and maybe I'll ever share them with you.

But first, we have to see each other and we will, Pasqualina said so. ;)

First Post On Monday

 Dear Juneleh,

Taking a short break to write the first post of the day and expect I'll probably write a second one here just because.

Haven't decided if I want to ask you if you remember what it was like to kiss me and to be kissed or if I am going a different direction.

Can't decide if I want you from behind, on your back or with your legs over my shoulders. Hell, I can't decide about a lot of things.

Can't wait to have you and can't wait to watch you wrap your lips around me.

Mostly can't wait to wrap you in my arms and have some time in our world. We need it.

Been a long year, baby, let me carry you for a bit and let's enjoy what only we can do for each other. It is time.

A March Surprise

 Dear June,

Looks like we have a new visitor rolling through this place but I don't recognize the IP.  Pretty sure it wasn't you and pretty sure you haven't read the last couple of posts.

Pretty sure the next time I see you here I am going to reach out and ask you when we can sleep together and when we can hang out.

Beyond pretty sure that you have considered it more than once and that you haven't made a final decision.

Certain that you could give yourself to me and enjoy it but that you wonder where it will lead and if we'll end up addicted to each other again.

Not sure we ever got over that addiction, it just sort of fades a bit because we make it that way for our own comfort.

Got my suspicions about the how and why, maybe it is tied into that four letter word. Don't go for as many years as we have without something deep and I am not talking about being buried deep in the physical sense.

Though there is something to it.

Nah, it is a mental/emotional thing and maybe chemical too. We really are tied together in some ways and how that plays out, well now isn't that the million dollar question.

Anyway, didn't plan on writing anything new until you visited again, but I did. So I could stroke your ego and tell you I think you look hot and tell you all sorts of other stuff that you already know but like hearing from me.

Magic 8 ball says you'll hear it in person one day, if not before.

Life is one hell of a ride huh.

Videos and Pictures

 Dear June,

Should I confess you did this thing with your lips that reminded me of how they looked when wrapped around me or that you made another face that made me wonder how long before I get to kiss you again.

Should I tell you how I like texting with you because it feels like old times and makes me think we're that much closer to whatever is coming.

Speaking of coming...you are going to be sooner or later...by my touch.

Looking forward to making your toes point and your heart sing a little song. I like taking care of you.

Bet you read this soon.

How Long Part II

 Dear June,

I don't think you have read How Long so I am putting the link here so you can see it.

Not a big Valentine's Day guy but I'd spread some romance with you for no other reason than just because. 

You're a major pain-in-my-ass but you have been part of my life in one way or another for so long it is hard to remember a time when you weren't.

I imagine you might say the same about me, hard to say because there are moments when I am certain when I know you and times where I think maybe I don't know so much.

But ask me to pick between the two and I will always opt for saying I know you because I feel you, always have.

Always hear your voice when I read your words and the gut feeling in my belly is we have a ridiculous amount of potential.

Again, I won't say what we'll be in the future, but I will have you again. I will look down and see you looking up at me. I will bury myself inside you and we'll remember again that we have shared more mature intimacy than any other.

How do I know this?

I just do.

We can't stop finding each other and no matter what we do we go back and look for our other half. 

Baby, to me that is all the proof I need that we are going to dip our toes into this again and see what happens.

Timing and circumstances aren't perfect but they are closer to being what we would ask for than they have been in years.

We're on the long and winding road, even if we don't know for how long or where it goes. We're on it because we can't not keep walking a little bit farther and a little bit longer. Maybe even deeper.

Guess you know a bit about some of what I am thinking about, but certainly not all of it. There is all sorts of good stuff to talk about.

How Long

 Dear June,

Watched you sing twice and thought about a bunch of things. Thought about meals we shared and times spent alone. Pictured you on your knees and on your back.

But I thought about our birthday and how we sat on the couch holding hands watching a movie and just enjoying time together.

Thought about when I can look you in the eye and just talk. Thought about when I can wrap my fingers in your hair or grab your waist and take you.

Thought about whispering in your ear that I want to make love to you and thought about being crude and saying I need to put my dick in your mouth and feel you suck on my head.

Thought about bending you over the couch and manhandling you.

Thought about how when you and I are at our best we're pretty damn good.

Wondered how long it is going to be before I wrap you up in my arms and you really let go and share with me.

Wondered when I'll be more direct and whether you can stand the intensity of my glare. Thought about whether that bit about us healing each other has any truth and figured it probably does.

Been 18 years, how the fuck did that happen woman.

Certainly not the guy I used to be in some ways but I am more myself than ever. If you are interested in finding out about him you might meet him.

Either way, we're going to get some time to do our thing. One day you'll look up at me and wonder if I could be any deeper or if we could feel any closer. I am certain of it.

I Hear Your Voice

Dear Juneleh,

Even though you haven't acknowledged my words, requests or proposals here I hear your voice in the silence and see you nod your head in assent.

Been smiling about my favorite YoYo all damn day.  Don't take it the wrong way, I would be aggravated on the corporate front if that is how I was treated too.

Can't help but picture a YoYo swinging back and forth or bobbing up and down and what can I say, you were awesome at that.

I want more. I want your lips wrapped around me.

I want your arms and legs too.

Hell, I need them and I think you do too which is why you haven't told me to go away.

I look forward to having you again. Look forward to watching your eyes as I slide all the way in, you are so damn sexy.

Still believe our hearts and souls are connected for a deeper purpose. Still believe there is some sort of spiritual thing there. You don't have to agree or believe, that is ok.

Still believe we can learn from each other and give so much that we don't get elsewhere.

Still not asking for long term commitment nor trying to say you are just here for sex. That is not it at all. You mean too much to me for that.

Just laying some cards on the table that say life is short and we deserve to see what can happen. Could go somewhere, might not.

But when you think you might be able to hold hands and fly together you ought to find out and not let it go because it might hold a challenge or two.

So smile my girl, and remember when you are thinking of me I just might be thinking of you too.